A Day of Personal Strength

Yesterday was a day that I cannot really do justice by describing just in words. I had conciously not got myself worked up or angry about the breakdown of my Powerbook, which is something I would normally do. I have been known to just flip about things like that, but this time I was very concious of the fact that any such reaction would be futile. It won’t fix my computer and it won’t change my life from the way I don’t want it to be to the way I do. Simple as that.

I spent my day off (yes another one. I have more days off than days in the office!) reading some great material regarding the Law of Attraction and working through some useful exercises getting clear about what I want out of life. I sat down to write a list of all the things I want with some detail elaborating on the feelings and emotions that having those things evoke in me and what happened was breathtaking. Instead of making a long list, like a wish list, I ended up writing a detailed description of just one thing and I knew as I was writing it that this was truly the thing I wanted. I have never had such clarity defining what I want. Never this focused.

The "thing" I described was a lifestyle. I detailed where that would be, what it entaled and who was a part of that lifestyle. As I wrote the details I could feel myself smiling as if from inside myself, from my core and when I read it back to myself it made me cry with joy. The kind of feeling I believe I would have if that desired lifestyle, that wish had just been confirmed and granted to me.

Later on I called my girlfriend and I told her all about it. I explained what I had done and what it was all about. I read to her what I had written on the page and her response couldn’t have been more perfect. She told me that what I had just read made her feel really happy and she could hear that the words were straight from my heart. She believes that I am on the right path. Needless to say that she is a prominent feature in what I wrote.

I told her also about my faulty computer and she said that she will wish that it can be repaired easily and that my recording studio can be up and running in the least expensive way. About 2 minutes after the end of our conversation I went to switch on my computer just for the hell of it. It worked…… This is the absolute truth I swear.

OK, so the computer still intermittently refuses to boot up as I discovered later, but at least I know it is not a serious problem. Just one which needs to be attended to. At least it’s not a complete rebuild or replacement job!